Hi Moshibeth
Sorry to hear your struggling, you've already took a massive step by openly talking, it's not nice, i'm on Sirtraline and have been for approx 12 months, and it does take the edge off.
I was made redundant last December 2024 and went downhill rapidly, i Was broken, i had a good support network (Family) who kind of understood.
My Wife is a Disabled Amputee (Through Knee Amputation left leg) and now her right leg has deteriorated, I kind of had a rethink on priorities and came to the conclusion that no-one is more important than those you love, and i know everybody's situation is different, i took the decision to be her Carer which is fully justified as she has other health issues also.
In general i'm happier, i help massively with chores, driving to Hospital and Clinic appointments and we manage, My wife says i'm a different person, i have off days and i got my head around the fact that it's to be expected, it does get better i promise, the key is to talk, share and be open and honest with others as you are to yourself, you don't know it yet my old friend but your already going down the right path, stay strong, make time for yourself, and you have a fantastic Christmas, sending love and peace from me and The "Slimmy Family"
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